thinking back on my friendship with my sisters... it is like a long long story ... never ended ... laughter non stop ... cry tgt love tgt hug tgt tears tgt ..
i love the feeling . i am not lesbian but they are just too nice to me ... sometimes i wonder i am that worth ... they goes a extra mile ... wipe my tears and say i am here ...

Knowing that u got a new gf ... Congrates .. For me maybe hiding behind blessing you is the best motive of all le ...

Looking at ur conversation with her, u two are very sweet :)

Think a lot this few days ... How does a situation change a person entire life?
Just happen that my grandma fall down and admit to hospital ... Everything changes, my parents go to hospital everyday. I wanted to go hospital but my body get sick easily ... So i decrease the number of days for visiting ... Everything seems so sudden ...

Everything is changing ... Is ur heart changed too?

Making myself busy seems to b a rountie for me le ... Even sick i also wan b busy ... Gonna crazy !

I sometimes worth y i got such energy ! Hahahas .. Work study ... Break study ... Off study .. Is like a normal thing sometimes will still not happy studying but still will guai guai do it ... Thinking of whatever others did mine is just nothing?!

I just got to endure ! Pass by 3 yrs i guess it will b okay

Wei ling got to b strict towards urself !! Pls focus on studying ! Even miss him also cant say!!! Endure is the best thing on earth now ! Endure and suffer now and enjoy later ...
I know ur heart now got only him but u can let time pass by .. Who call u destroy it le !

I am once ur gd friend
Now it was gone ...
Once this word is so scary !!! Hmmm ... I like to say once a friend always a friend ... But now dun say that anymore ... I now then realise that sentence isnt true

U can wish to b that person's friend but does not mean she or he must accept u as a friend ..

Do i really deserve what i have now?

Wow thanks u make me think if this is really what i deserve from u all .. I try so hard and get so far... All u hear is i got attitude problem from a senior one ... And that senior just twist and turn all the words u just listen ... U make me think am i really too naive to let u all just bully me around ..

U just let me think this isnt what i deserve make me have the second thought of leaving again ... Thanks man ...

tml sch starts le .. will it b better or getting worse ...
thinking tml start sch all the stress come back hais ... if i am just sand on the sea goes by according to the sea how will it feel???

feel by the wind, moving with the clouds ... cry with the rain dropping... feel hot with the sun ... isnt that wonderful ...

grandma admitted to hospital and my family members keep going to and fro ... the doctor allow her to discharge but we does not have the time to take care of her ... all busy working and me going back to sch ...

worry this and that ...

when u grow up ur smiles will slowly gone ...

Receive ur private message make me feel shock and surprised ... Never thought that u will do it somemore u r my ex ...
How much u worth now is not longer impt .., i wont go back to past .. By the replies u given to me .. Can c that i become more and more stronger .., before is work between ITE and work now is POLY and work .. I had change to b more independent compared to u ... How abt u ?

I now is telling u that i can c u regretted leaving me but i had not ... I knew what i am doing ....
But still gd luck for ur future .. Dun look or turn back cause i wont follow u ... Its the end ..

曾经的希望是你给我的。现在我只有我给我自己的笑容和希望

You can give me hopes like how u give me before but when u vanish they left with u too ... So what is the point giving me ...

misu misu

this song is nice hehehehe ... at first i thought is some gd singer but at the end i realise it is a new singer ... but the voice really sweet and nice :)

ytd i really accept my Iphone died ... now using budget hp for the time being ... when i going home from somerset i saw someone i miss !!! JUNE !! I REALLY MISS HER ALOT ... when taking train saw her chat for a few minutes .... hehehehe misu misu :) <3 br="br">

BUSY? Maybe?

this few days work work work ... the only time to rest i totally body no energy le ... 3 days work really making my body cant tahan ... but it is the only way i can earn more money before sch term starts again ...

Since Fri i never receive a single sms from u le ... maybe u r busy bah ... i also dun wish to take the initiative of texting you, Yes i have my own pride ... since u r not texting me so what for .... if u got the heart u will send a sms ... even others will at least send a hello sms .... so i doubt there is a need to text u ... take ur time bah if u wan my phone will receive it de ...

but truthfully thinks that u r a good friend of mine no rs involve ... i say before 3 yrs of time will cure my pain and also can let me focus on studies ...

potion to my smiles and laughter

met up with my 4 gorgeous ITE cliques .... they really unable to b replace like how my 6 sisters are in my heart !!!

went to a lot of places ... it just started with a place call City Hall MRT ... and the journey goes on and on ... from marine square to esplanade to Singapore River and goes on to Singapore Flyer .... all the start is from fate ...

yes maybe all humans use first impression to select and choose their way of life ... but they use heart !! using heart to know, gain and love our friendship .... laughter starts and goes so fast until u do not even notice ...

 

YES TO B TRUTH I REALLY MISS THE LIFE WITH THEM... 

they are another potion to my smiles and laughter  ... 

all words and actions unable to show how impt they r !! 

but happy time always go very fast ... 

Friendship with u all

Some small things can make me happy for a while but some small things can make me angry and sad for the rest of my life that is me ...

Some name sounds weird, dun sounds nice but they are made cause i think u r impt ... Some words i said or u say might not b noticeable but to me, as long as i can remember i treat it very impt.... Some things which is past through, i keep them cause i know they r impt
Some memories goes by, i still remember cause i know it is impt ...

Yes, maybe u dun think it is impt .. But it means a lot to me ... Yes i miss the past and now i know i need to create my future alone with u...

Yes to me, u all r impt ... Every word u all say or do hurts me or cheer me ... A small movement like wishing me happy birthday is an energy to me ...

I dunno u all will c this but it bothers me ... And y it bothers because i treasure u all ... Tears will drop heart will breaks but trust and feelings wont lie to me...

Our friendship will it last ? I cant confirm but i can only say ... This friendship i will try !!!AND I DID MY BEST.

为何你那么伤心呢？
笑着笑着我绝哭了。
明明是快乐的我眼里只有哀伤。
明明这是我当初要的，我绝觉得不快乐。。
那道我要得不是我想的？
我开始问了自己。

I believe that is always what every1 is thinking... Always thinks that now what u achieve is what u wan ... But u think back, actually i am in miserable statues is this really what i wanted?
Only after u know what happen then u regret ... U can put words that u dun bother ,u dun care , u wont get angry nor sad but how many times u did those in actions instead of words ...

At the end did u hide behind some1 or sth and start crying? Is ur heart breaking everytime u saw that? Is ur heart dripping of tears and blood for u while u still need to smile in front of others acting nth happen?

When i am young i always thinks that my parents dun care me specially when i pri 2 every1 around me got parents to bring them home yet i got to go home myself ..

Slower time pass by, i begin to go home myself and thinks i am big enough to control my emotions .. Now then i know i am wrong, i cant control my emotions ... It goes up and down like waves ... My parents are like the boat held me up when i needed them and make me realise how impt they r actually in my daily life ...

I can also say i can ignore them but i cant ... Feel so sad and dunno what to do :( i dun wan to cry cause i dunno when is the next time i smile

How much u bother abt me sia ? When i am depressed all the concern i have is from my family members ... Waiting for u to ask me, y am i sad but what did u do?

I am totally loss of words la ...

If u dun say they wont know ... Everytime u just do what u wan and u think it is the best for everyone but they might not think that way ...
Buck up bah

my mum told me something shocking ... she says that if u dun wan study, dun study if u wan quit school just quit school ... if u cant tahan the way how ppl treat u then do the same as how they treat u ....

this is the first time my mum told me so ... she say i look more tired more sad and her heart hurts a lot looking me like that ... thanks mum ... u given me courage ... i will bear with the consequences ... but till now i will 忍耐, i will complete this 3 years course and leave studies aside ....
Poly education is expensive, i dun wan my parents money got wasted due to me ...

Wei Ling jia you !!!

我曾经喜欢过也在乎过。你有在乎我过吗？

Went go to meet my 3 sisters ... Not related with blood but closer than u can think of ... Never ended laughter and smile ... Never need to b fake .. Dun need to lie ... In front of them is just REAL ... Dun need to hide around ...
Laughter can never stop but time goes faster than i thought of ... On my way home now ... If only they r in same place and make the smile on my face forever ...

How much is ur tears worth ? My mum ask me this question and i am thinking it through this few days... And now i understand ... She just wanted me to know that being sad does not solve the problems ... If i dun face it no matter how much i am sad of, i will still have to face the problem :(

I am tired of caring worry and do anything for them ... Now i am worry for some1 else .. my gd friends know it my parents know that ... Worry how is she le ? Hoping she is fine :( dun go out often dun get angry easily ... Dun vomit or cry easily hope everything towards her is okay :(

As long as she is fine i bet i can go through all the hardship too

Fuck la ... I randomly hate the life sia !!! Seriously if u r unhappy with me and i know it and already apologise do u still make still so 绝....

waiting for a project room to do my projects with my grp members but seems like there is a lot ppl waiting for it too damn it ...

hope can faster get a project room ... sincerely hate one of the ppl .... playing computer games inside project room is so damn irritating ...

bringing ur laughter and treat it as mine ... no matters how much i regret ... u r always the one that i wont give up ... the reason for me to continue strive better results... i give up in rs but can never give up in studies for u .... as long as u r joyful and happy i am fine ....

 my friend ask me i am attached now?
and i replied yes, i am in a relationship,  attached with my books now.
that is all i going to do for the 3 years !! 
it is so damn cold now in tp lib ... going to frozen soon le !!! argh ... waiting for time to pass ..

gtg byes :P
 

Looking at the stories created my seniors in secondary school ... Is damn freaking scary i dun wish to follow their footsteps .. It is sth i will never wanted ...

Feel kind of sad for them ... A woman forever wish but she cant get it due to some reasons ... It is like damn freaking sad ... Argh i dunno what to say or comment ...

something u dun mean it but u did it !!! that is what i always do ... and the idea of it isnt right ... u actually thinks the other way but i might do it in another way or sth .... seriously sorry for that ... i dun mind it ...

i just do lots of toot toot and blur blur things and never even realise i had started hurting my friends beside me ... nobody told me before ... and thanks for telling me that ...

i must be careful of what i will and react next time ... will change and show u de !!!

Not referring to any1

I seriously hate to wait ... No matters is ppl late for the event or reply damn slow ... It really make me pissed off ... If the event isnt impt to u then dun attend la ... If the person u smsing to isnt impt then dun send a sms to the person la ...


Specially hate ppl to b late !!! If time is money and it is precious to u , then how abt others time? Isnt it as precious as urs too ? I in sec sch i will confirm roll my eyes and stared at u due to late and wont give u nice face ...
Now is like even u late i am fine with it but dun do it too over pls ... I also got patient lehx if i can bear u late a couple of minutes does not mean i am fine with couple of hours ... U prince or princess is it ? Must let ppl wait ar? Dafuq la ...

Pls has sense of time la ...

Ps it isnt saying any1 but if u think u r then so b it!

If the event is u hold de or u r the one waiting for the reply what will u think ? Pissed off right? Put urself in others shoes bah

Ok got back all the results and i think C is something i never expected ... Hais .... Really damn freaking sad

Just this week i like think too much or maybe a lot ... I feel bad thinking that way but i dunno how to express them now i can only say i am like damn loss ... Dunno what to do and by the time i wan to do sth everything is completed ... Is like wt... Argh

This few days isnt a gd mood la ...

Ok gtg byes

Going to sch soon .. I still dun use to my short hair so wish it faster grow long ...

Start to worry abt my test results le ... One of it score damn badly :( super upset ... Hope the rest will b better ...
Jia you le ....

IN TP NOW!!!
hahahas accompanying Cheryl for her interview for her cca and i am now here blogging again .... is super damn bored in TP LIB now ...
if u got enquire on my hair, yes i cut them and now i am with short hair :P ok actually dun really like and use to it but since i had cut them just bear with it right???

thinking of rebonding ... hmmm shall i ?

wanted to get over and done it ...
throat not in a gd situation .... maybe getting worse ? it is damn super pain compared to thurs .... tml sch starts and it is gd hahahahas cause i miss my friends le ... damn boredom at home :(

misssssss lots of stuffs ... how much u bother and worry abt one person even he or she dun even give a damn on u? feel sad when she/he is sad? miss her/him when they r not around? feel happy when u c their smiles? do u have a person in mind right now? dun deny actually u like her or him right?

i dun have such person in mind now ...  cause my mind is BLANK!! dun ask me y ... i just wish the days mths and years pass faster ... maybe using a fast forward button? if in life really got this button i will love it alot... hahahas i bet u will love it too ...

time to rest ... sick person need rest more right? hahahas

this week is a busy week got to do projects, work hais no life

jia you wor !!

因为在乎所以怕失去。
Because u care so u scare u will lose it
...

This few days i am like a workaholic never stop working ... I am damn tired even off also go out hais ... Crazy holiday ... But at least dun need c textbooks and lecture notes lol

Ok got to go sleep tml meeting jerry and julie for breakfast before work

就算我有那么一点点的在想你，我还是不想听到你的消息。。。

i randomly got the urge to cut my hair all away for the cancer event ... i think i am crazy but of course i guess i will talk to my parents and c what they going to say lol 

Singing singing ... Feel like sleeping only ...

Isnt my little piggy cute ?

就算你不在我身边，我还是默默的觉得好幸福好像你每一天的想我

I dun understand y ... Whenever i feel sad, i got a feeling u r behind me pushing me forward even if u left without me ... I c ur fb and twitter make me feel so sad yet i cant tell u ... I guess u in love with other gurls le bah .. I am the one who never treasure u so i wont say anything ...

Just miss u sometimes ... Hopefully u and ur family are fine
I will also stop all ways to contact u at least i will feel much better ...

Thanks for being around with me

Out on a date with my friends

Out to ITE to collect cert :)
Later meeting my friends :)
Hehehe miss them a lot muacks :)

all i hear is rain drops ... just like the tears rolling down the cheeks ...
u can say how much u love me but yet can u say it last forever ....

it pass through 2 months le ... I never feel regret leaving u at all but i really feel sad ... it is a sadness u wont wish to know ..

long ago i was just a ITE student playing around like nobody business .. having fun, working and doing crazy things but now i had to change ... the more i play the lesser serious i am ...

getting more and more serious ... no matters to project work or school ... getting stress is like a common thing in Poly ... looking at my classmates damn serious and focus on their exams ... they totally make me impress ...they are really damn clever and lihai ...

but their friendly make me scare .. i guess there is still black face in sch yet i havent realise and notice ... hopefully u wont harm me .... dun worry i am not a tiger or lion i will only return what u give me ... and after returning u i will say thanks for teaching me what is life means to u ...

i got to go tml got exam

gd luck to my classmates and whoever having exams hehehehe

Everytime we argue seems like is the same topic ... Work !! When will the argument end this time ? Hais

It is cracked

My heart has crack into pieces le ... Maybe we r really not suitable ... U dunno y i need trust so much ..

That is the main problem between us ...
Dun worry i will find the pieces and glue it up even if it is still crack at least it still works ...

Take care

Bella might b a blog walker might just type randomly but at least the words make sense to me ...

My bibi dun trust me again :( argh what i did again to make him angry .... I try my best le .... But he just dun like it :(


Hais

:)

thanks for bella: even though i dunno u but ur tag make me smile too ... thanks ...
yeah she is agree smile and the world is yours ...
how long is it that u really smile??? in 1 day ago? 1 mth ago? 1 year? or only when u r a baby?

when we getting older and older the smile on our face fade slower too .... so does urs faded le ma???
can the smile always lay on ur face being one of ur favourite expression?

u can have the greatest thing on earth but actually u just need a smile from every1 in the world that u face, no matter is it ur family, friends colleagues classmates schoolmates or even a stranger... just a smile make everything worth to strive for ....

so is ur smile :) expression on ur face yet? if havent pls do it asap ... dun let it disappear due to ur age ...

:)