Do i really deserve what i have now?

Wow thanks u make me think if this is really what i deserve from u all .. I try so hard and get so far... All u hear is i got attitude problem from a senior one ... And that senior just twist and turn all the words u just listen ... U make me think am i really too naive to let u all just bully me around ..

U just let me think this isnt what i deserve make me have the second thought of leaving again ... Thanks man ...

tml sch starts le .. will it b better or getting worse ...
thinking tml start sch all the stress come back hais ... if i am just sand on the sea goes by according to the sea how will it feel???

feel by the wind, moving with the clouds ... cry with the rain dropping... feel hot with the sun ... isnt that wonderful ...

grandma admitted to hospital and my family members keep going to and fro ... the doctor allow her to discharge but we does not have the time to take care of her ... all busy working and me going back to sch ...

worry this and that ...

when u grow up ur smiles will slowly gone ...

Receive ur private message make me feel shock and surprised ... Never thought that u will do it somemore u r my ex ...
How much u worth now is not longer impt .., i wont go back to past .. By the replies u given to me .. Can c that i become more and more stronger .., before is work between ITE and work now is POLY and work .. I had change to b more independent compared to u ... How abt u ?

I now is telling u that i can c u regretted leaving me but i had not ... I knew what i am doing ....
But still gd luck for ur future .. Dun look or turn back cause i wont follow u ... Its the end ..

曾经的希望是你给我的。现在我只有我给我自己的笑容和希望

You can give me hopes like how u give me before but when u vanish they left with u too ... So what is the point giving me ...