I am sorry :( i keep wanted to go tampines walk a while alone ... At the end argue with my bibi ... He is still angry with me cause i am tired and sleepy yet i dun wan go home rest and after that go out for my appointment with dental ...

I am really sry :(

Words means a lot

Reading low kay hwa storybook .. It wrote this ... Love is a rubber band it can either be stretched to its limit so that it can hold the most number of things or it can b stretched till its break ...

Did i break the rubber band of ours ???? Got a mixed feelings ...

To me this relationship will last .. But to u it seems like nothing really matters anymore ... U dun care what i say u dun bother to ask what i thinking ... U dunno how bad is the feeling is ... Is it i the only wan who still wan this relationship ??? Is ur heart really still with me ???
Some words u say u mind nothing but when u say those words u r hurting some1 ... No matters u wan to say or not


Ps: i dunno whether u will c this, but even if u dun is ok ...

As long as i am with u and i am xin fu i dun care what other comments ppl going to give me !!!

Hack care really ... But if the only thing i wan from u u cant give me ... I really damn disappointed

Everytime i waiting for vibration from u yet there isnt .. But when i am busy u keep vibrating!! Now due to u i never notice my sms and he not happy !!!

Damn u la ... Really seriously if u r not a expensive phone i wont want u le ...

I know that feeling of ppl never reply ur sms ... I know that ... But i really got take note of it .. I did not c there is notification cum it is on my body somemore ... If there is vibration i wl wake up le ... But there isnt :(

When time goes by, u will c the changes

I say it before i will never do changes to any guy i love ... But now i need to change that sentence le..

Love is not for u to say but for u to do .. If u can keep ur promises and do it then that is what love means abt no matter is it family friends or couples ...

Keeping promises to me is important .. Just value all promises i make to all my loved ones specially my bf
B the kind ppl can trust on than b the kind ppl treat u like nth ...

U can b some1 in other ppl's mind but does every1 wants to b the bad one ?

another day of busy ...
my grandma admitted to hospital ... this is the first time i realise her presence is so important ... i am so worried and scare knowing she is seriously ill ... thanks to bibi, he let me know actually it is not that scary at all ...

Actually i am very worry .. The feeling is a mixture ...i know my worry is useless what come by will go by ... But it really sad to c her injury to shivering to admitted to hospital ... Till the time when the nurse came out and following day hear that she is very serious ... Might go to ICU ... Until now can chat and disturb till can order her own food ... It is blessing thanks to my friends even my bf ...

Sry for making u guys trouble ... Whenever i freaked off my friends will see a lots side of me ... They will b like seeing the another person of me an inhuman me ...
Another person who dun care others and damn silent ... Who is totally different character of course ...

Sry

P.S thanks for being by my side when i needed u ... Only when u r around i find myself safe ...

as per normal went to sch ... but the only thing is different is i dun have the mood ..
affected by sth specially when i really really trust and believe that the person wont break my heart ...
dun think too much it isn't my bf ... but friends who with me ...

some words are not meant to b say out but when u say out pls know the consequences ...

it make no harm by me to just say abt u guys ... i wont have any loss ... but did i ?? I am just like u guys ... i will do wrong things make wrong mistake does not mean i wont get scolded ...

when i do mistakes i dun might getting scolded by u if u spot it ... and i will apologise when i do it wrong ... i confirm with u! dun worry i am just a part timer ... wont go to CS HOD ...

ps: it is not a warning ... just to tell u what i thinks after reading all comments and same thing like the previous one, i will eat all comments ... thanks !

Having dinner now :) the whole morning i am settling those shit !! Issue wrong give wrong wrong data entry mailing calling ... All kinds of rubbish ... Only finish those things right before my dinner starts ... It makes me starting to think y do i have to do those things as a part timer ?? It is so so tiring

Bibi caspar

Today went out with bibi ... I thought of meeting him at 12 after he ends his sch .., but suddenly ms tan (costing) teacher tell us lesson cancel ... So i 10am finish sch .. He told me that he will b going his friend hse to do presentation

In front say ok :) but in my heart feel so sad loh ... Then 2 plus we met :) went to his hse, honey (his dog) ran towards me !!! After bibi hold the dog ... My legs appear with 2 big and long scratches ...
Bibi starts to get worry and get angry with honey ... I started to feel wow it is really relationship lol ... He really dote and love me alot :) he even do sweet things to me :)

Really love him so so much ... Damn sweet :) i wont wan to let him go of course ...

Ps. Bibi if only u dun wan me, or else pls hold my hands closely and tightly :)
Muacks love u darling

In sch now super duper hungry ... Bi and mf keep saying food ... Then ms tan keep saying chicken damn damn hungry le la

Y cant i control myself in falling into **** it is like so easy ???
I really thinks her blessing is important .., she hope she agrees ... I need her support :(

Love myself more

Got to love myself more ... Shall not think of things still stress and upset me :(

When it approach and arrives all i need to do is just reject ....

Smile makes everything worth while and laughter make everything special ...

When u r not in a gd mood pls dun talk to anyone it will inly make ur mood to the worst !!!
That is what i think :)

Disgrace

Pls dun disgrace urself by saying words that a high education person wont say ... It is disgrace ... Saying ppl behind ...

Wtf u r slut??? Lol
U make me really curious who the fuck u r !!! I dun understand if u wan to say me !! Pls say me directly!!! I am a slut ???
U make me piss off !! I never say anything bad abt u ... I never comment and say anything ... U wan c ppl tweet go ahead but u make me pissed off now ...u wan comment pls b more daring .... Say it in front of me ! Thanks

In class another day .. Later after sch going to changi airport to study :)

Sleepy in class

Colourful me hahahhs

Promises

Make a promise ... :)

Sch work is already a trouble now ... Shall not get myself into more troubles :)

Is a promise to all i love one "wink"

is all locked ! thanks

unfollow means??? i hate the feeling of being unfollow ... is like ... i dunno the feeling just so suxs ...

cant relationships ended up to friendship ...
maybe next u going to delete me in fb right?
or just dun come work even better right???
i am just so lousy at relationship ... really lousy ..
not even relationship i think friendship too
when i need some1 who is really there ??? i knew who ... is just myself myself and myself right?
i locked my relationship to myself only ... shall i now lock my friendship to myself too??
cause nobody really cares ... it is like ppl c c but wont approach me to encourage ...
pls u dun come unlock it le then walk away !!! it is painful to me

sometimes i really need those encouragement at least i know i am not alone ... but does any1 cares ???
even i sick i doubt nobody knows ...
my laughter and smiles are locked for now ....
i dunno how to laugh in front of ppl who dun care abt me at all ...
i wont say i will die ... cause i knew i dun dare to do that ...

我的勇敢是假的，
我的微笑是为了不要别人担心
我的眼泪是流在心里
不是故意，让自己不想自己的

Making fun in the salon while wendy cutting her hair

Finally i say it out

Ytd say out what i wanted to say .. So shiok but in the end u still dun wish to accept .., i knew i broken ur heart before did not except u to accept yet still bet with a slightly chance

Overall i still lose le ... I did cry ytd my eyes are swollen now ... But if we two r not attached will make u happy i think its okay then ... It makes no differences

Just that my heart did open for u and lock u in it yet i still cant find the key to unlock u ... A bit now ... Specially when i am sick cant go sch the only thing i can do is to think of u ...

vomit and vomit isn't that fun !!
totally unwell ... am i play my life?

sometimes i really think back ... actually my parents start damn sweet ... hahahahas ... they are always like young couples ... hahahaahs ...

they always go out together ... hehehee .. damn sweet ..

not talking abt them today ... cause they are not the main focus ...
this few days studying and working ...
starts to feel the tiredness le ... hmmm i am really starting to get old right ??? hahahahs some things must still admit hahahahs ...
slack for a day le ..
shall go slp soon :)
nites babes and hunks

my dad no matters how heartless he said ... he still love my second brother hahahas ...

randomly my brother told me he suddenly feel so sad ... then i realise i am not the one feel that way ...
after that situation i now then realise how much my parents love us ... when my brother say that my tears start to roll down my cheeks ... i really really need a shoulder need some1 to cheer me up :'(

tears rolling down

so so so long never on blog le hahahss

this few days got so sad angry and disappointed ...
i dunno what wrong with u ... but u making my family so pissed off by u !

y did u do that? ppl family got broken r u so happy?? my exam got flung thanks to u ... i cant remember anything my whole mind is only my brother and u this !@!@!@!@ ...

u wanted me and my family angry ... i purposely wont !! no matters what my family angry i wont get angry !!!

i just starting to realise i dunno anything abt my family ... I never did anything for them :'(

just an useless daughter, useless sister!! thanks for letting me know this ...

@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!

for all bad words are replaced by @!@!@!

formspring.me

hmmm what do u wan to know abt me?? http://formspring.me/weilingmiko

u have never b a passby-er now never and it never will

i wont come out the idea without thinking loh !!! if i did not think i will not decide it slower ... everything tell me wait wait wait ... wait till die also can not wait cause u dun even bother to buy !!! have u think abt the internet bill ???

u think i am happy to lose my hp ar ??? i so hate myself but i trying to feel better time to time ... it is like a big hard rock drop down u think i am happy with it ???
i use it some purpose
if the internet bill keep rolling ... the expenses wont get less than the phone that i decide loh !
need more cash to settle my worries ...


if u r not supporting me then i will find my way ...

lots of things happening in a week
firstly break up with him i am totally single but dun ask me the reason ... dun wish to say and bother ...

secondly i lost my memories :( it is my iphone i have lost it :( someone had stolen it feel damn sad

within a week everything i think changes ... at first i think i am the most fortune one got ppl loves me got a gd family and have a couple of gd sisters everything goes so perfect ... but now i realise god will give u some gd things and will also take it back

but really love my friends they are always there around me ... maybe i never notice but they knew i need help and just follow me...

i was running around the sch and they just follow me !!! so sweet thanks ♥

in life there is all kinds of special situations and a lot of it is argue and fight ...

have u ever thought that y u argue or fight?

actually we argue and fight because we care for each other too much .... hope that i am not wrong...
since it is the end of it so we shall treat each other better no matter is as friends or what kind of relationship but if u make it to so hardcore .. then just b it ...

now i dun have anything regarded to u ... if u say we shall b friends then y u r posting those words to hurt me ???
maybe we have never really think abt it ... love is really blind ... a few mths ago we were so fine and 3 mths ago i am waiting for u to come out ... but now after 3 mths ... we had break up ...

treating ur friends ideas as ur ideas and what u wan to say ... i dun care and mind ... but the words u say really like u took my heart and throw into the sea ... from ur mouth, it is just torture...

i will b fine !! really fine , fine until u regret ... i will let u regret no matters what ... that is how i am going to do ...

my brother told me to give him time ... but how long can i wait ?? 1 day 2 days or 1 week?? so wish he tell me asap the faster he tell me the lesser pain i will have ..

once i reach home my heart started to tear into pieces and it is really damn pain ... pain till i can not take it ... feel like dying ...

during this 1 week of break i have think a lot and learn a lot .. realize without u i will b still fine ...

smile is what i always did and till now i never fail to do that ... so hope u can wake up i wan have my dinner soon le :X

BYES

every1 is quiting .... it starts to get boring working in Popular ....
when u get the control sth , u will wan more ..
I started to think shall i quit ... yet i need that salary to pay my insurance, to have my enjoyment and etc ....

so hope i can find a job outside regarding accounting while i having my sch work in ITE .... so hope it is not attachment ... sch attachment salary suxs ahahahha ...

wish the project faster ends, the holiday get slower and hope the time stops and let me enjoy the holiday ...
ppl enjoying holiday I am working .. when i wanted to enjoy the holiday has gone to a fullstop ....

have u wonder what makes u so special?
a question from my friend who asked me in formspring ....
and this is what i ans: all my friends, family members make me so special ....

so now i ask u blog viewers what makes u so special?

nth will b perfect even though every1 wish it is .... so what makes it really that great to b perfect ... i am not a perfect person i guess ... like any1 else i got my anger, my patience and etc ... so what makes a special one of me ???

got to block myself today to go fb ... while i go there i will start viewing ur profile and it makes me feel upset :'(

just now accidentally vent my anger to one of my colleague ... the person confirm still angry i am not in purpose ... i just can't control my anger today ...
morning i have try and try I did not vent it ...
but now i am doing it but to someone who is innocent i know i have do wrong now

tat is the rest y i prefer keep it to myself rather than vent it out ... other else some1 will get hurt :(

back to work ... doing crazy stuffs ... this few days realise i doing thing s alone dun wish to bother ppl if possible ... hmmm shall i get more help from the guys instead??

tired is what i used to say and i do feel tired sometimes ...
feeling tired in the way my friends treat me
feeling tired by putting emotions to myself
feeling tired when some guy friend treat me too gd
feeling tired when u ignore me !

lots of stupid reasons

feel so sleepy ... but unable to fall asleep .... I now then realise my house got 4 lappys ... lol ... right now i using is the extra one hahaha

hmmm ....
Monday i was off and went to pass some cash to my bf .. he that sotong forget to bring money in ... so went all the way with my brother to pass him $$ .... hmmm if u know me well i am actually a road idiot ... so i totally got lost ... luckily i bring my brother go with me hhehehee ... he got iphone and he is more thick face ... dare to ask ... and of course we are great friends and great siblings ... we make lots of jokes together :)
i am happy i am this two brothers :) really happy. ...

after that i went to ang mo kio ... my brother went off to meet his friends while i walk @ ang mo kio hub alone ... walk walk walk then suddenly remember my brother's friend, my mum and my bf birthday coming ... so I randomly ask my bf what he wants .... @ the end i inside bus then he reply me lol .... he ask me got other choices? then i reply what choices he wants ... @ the end he reply he wan me onli!!!! i reply him u got me le what hahahahah .. actually he reply damn romantic .. but i just " throw a bucket of cold water" hope u know what i mean ar !! hahahah ...
after that I reach home then start to feel sleepy .. keep dragging time to dental hehehehe ...
@ the end still got go la ...

after dental go home ... that is end

tue:
today at home whole day nth else ...

ok gtg byes .. candy dreams nites

heheeheh sry ... it is so so damn long from the day I update my blog :P

the latest one is something happen (a bit private) so not going say here :)

ok fine got a bf .... treat me well ... but sometimes feel insecure ... hmmmm ...
he got lots of ppl I dunnno .... arh !! (dun wish to know too) hehehehe

after the jan holidays did not went to work .... damn poor this few days ... dun wish to go anywhere too ...
every sat will go meet my bf ... when nth to walk we will then go his house slack hehehehe ....

the pictures above are his dogs :)
cookie and girl girl ... girl girl dun really like photos .. so I got 1 onli :(

after chinese new yr my dad's random decision !! LING,WEN LIANG we shall have dinner outside together put urself free... dun go out dating ... hahahax

after chinese new yr it goes .... wow romantic to some ... which is valentine day

meet my bf for a movie ... but @ the end we watch another 1 that I dun really like ... but nvm ... tickets already buy le ...
saw the movie homecoming wif his friends ... a bit not romantic... but overall still ok :)

a gift from bel .... valentine day gift :) so sweet :)

MR frog wants to being romantic too ... ahhaaha

some etc things in sch ..

rain wants to b superman .. with the help of william hahahaha

currently ... putting my head to the books and notes ... trying to remember all the words for my exams .... final yr for yr 1 !!!

haiz ... wish me gd luck bah :)

miko signing out

bi u will b alright rite???
pls :(
pls bless him :(

wow ... it is a few days ago from the new yr ... and waiting for chinese new yr hahaah ...

keep falling sick this few days 2 ... right after new yr I fall sick ... then I recover my steady fall sick ... now it come back to me again ... damn sian...

Mon sch starts I have orientation due to my cca ... but damn fun ... OF rocks man ... they make me feel I am part of them ... thanks guys ... thanks for all ur cooperation ... :)
tue acutally dun feel very well le .. but still went to sch for orientation ... wed totally can not bear with it somemore got sch no more orientation !! at the end went to take MC ... the doctor damn freaking long ...
she took 15 to 20 mins to call another patient ... i wait for @ least 3hrs sia ... damn ill le still need to wait for so long ... @ the end I go in not even 3 mins ... wth loh ...

after that went home and take my nap after eating medicine ...
now feeling better tml will go back to sch :) miss my QF mates ... hehehehe